and you're willing to pay handsomely to receive hollow reinforcement? And, you do this against your own will?

You may "feel" victimized because what you think you're paying for is acceptance (it's not). But, I think you've run yourself off the tracks. A victim in this business is someone who is engaged in prostitution, without having made a fully informed decision to do so. Whether that is because s/he can't find any other way to a pay the bills, or support children......or kids who have been adopted by "benevolent" benefactors (pimps) who provide for basic needs that their own parents could not, or would not provide.  

The fact that you actually have the money to "pay handsomely" for the services of a sex worker, by very definition, precludes you from "victim" status.