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Re: This makes no sense to me .........

Posted 3/6/2012 at 9:53:20 AM

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Sex and intimacy are different things.

When we were "playing" around, you know before the clothes came off, I saw one side of the woman. After we began to fool around another side of the woman came out. I would call this DRAMA...

I was very upfront about how I was willing to play, because I really didn't want to have the "relationship." Seriously, I thought I could have my cake and eat it too. Free sex with a hott married woman who was not going to leave her SO... She wanted something and I wanted something.   Based upon discussions we shared, it was a perfect fit... WRONG! Guilt, shame, annoyance, irritating, sabotage... and these were just my feelings. Now a guy who just wanted to fuck would be loving this woman every chance he could and would lie to her to just keep it on the chain....not me so I moved along.

The affair led me here because I had gone the celibate thing and was beginning to make "bad" decisions, you know like having an affair. I really had been the good boy route and I just decided that the wolf needed to be fed more right now. Believe it or not, we make very rash decisions when we are horny long enough... So, I decided to return to the hobby and escape this way.

So, does this answer your question??? More maybe...

Lets see, why pay when you get the milk for free. Do you really think the milk is free? What you save in $$ cost you in other areas... My hot MILF was driving me nuts with text and phone calls DEMANDING things because I was getting laid... Well, I have been there and done that and I really DO NOT like any demands... I don't care how great sex is. I started the affair thinking it was all about sex... NOPE! Now does this negate the fact that she is a great person, not at all. We are still friends and she is fun to be around... we just have more to laugh at when we are at functions. BTW, there is so much to this story, but am hoping that this is enough for you to understand... and yes, she is more willing today to just be "my whore" as she puts it because she wants to play and realizes that I'm not willing to deal with the other stuff...

Ok, so my post. If you follow it all the way through you will see I am defining more and more of what I want as I go. Learned more this morning... go figure, no sitting still here...

I want a true courtesan relationship, an intimate encounter with a beautiful woman who fulfills my deepest needs and desires for whatever length of time we desire or I can afford. I'm not a wham bam kinda a guy. I tried that with others and found out it was not going to work. I do not enjoy the "pop" sellers as much as the "experience" sellers... just my preference... the old adage works best for me "a lady in the parlor and a whore in the bedroom"  Nothing beats a sophisticated woman with brains, style, and character who unleashes all her desires in the bedroom!

I do not want this type of relationship with a civie, not interested in having it at all. Can I find it here or within the industry, YEP! My post were not looking for sympathy, just sharing because that is what the board is for.  No need to lie or embellish, I have lived a great, crazy, and fucked up life... Just need some really cool company from now and again to satisfy my collective needs... I have identified at least 3 great ladies that when possible I will schedule time with. My luck not one lives in my area... Each one is totally different from the other, but in many ways are the same or at least exhibit the same level of class, sincerity, and intellect...

I earn and burn what I make...not all decisions are wise, but wisdom can be obtained if we are paying attention to the results. I am a life learner, I enjoy the experiences...

Also, each of the ladies I saw were very good providers and did exactly what they advertised, they however had misrepresented looks and that was my issue. Me being 0-3 is my thing not theirs. I would have loved it if one of them had rung my bell. Not their fault because the bell is mine... There are two women on this board that more than ring my bell and I haven't even met them yet, do I believe our future time will be dynOmite...HECK yeah and then some!

a fuck is just a fuck, but an intimate encounter with the right woman... you will remember for a lifetime! It is those memories I am in search of, because its my life and I believe...  



 

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