Maybe find a local board besides Backpage? There are a couple out there specific to Utah. Some providers are willing to accept older OKs, especially when you explain why you have taken a break.  People take breaks all the time. I think you are allowed to come and go as you please.  You won't be starting over.  Just be safe! Happy Hobbying

Feel free to email me and I can suggest a website for you

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