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THAT SAID, Rather than run a longer than the long ad this will be here to cover the whole plan in one, I'm placing different ads in hopes, however all the same boiling past the next paragraph to the last two. Bottom line in advance, I build my own fantasies. Every time I have tried to really arrange this, a lot of Auto-reply or any sorts jumped me. So this time it's a complete fantasy, waste nor your time unless you want to read me practicing writing sexy rather than needy. 
It's just that along with my fetishes, I remain also a gentlemen and so fearful of hurting women's feelings it
borders in autistic,
Death before discourtesy, even at the orgy.
Heck, be honest - if I could live truly deal with life or women at this point, this might be a different list.
THAT SAID, Rather than run a longer than the long ad this will be here to cover the whole plan in one, I'm placing different ads in hopes, however all the same boiling past the next paragraph to the last two. Bottom line in advance, I build my own fantasies. Every time I have tried to really arrange this, a lot of Auto-reply or any sorts jumped me. So this time it's a complete fantasy, waste nor your time unless you want to read me practicing writing sexy rather than needy.
Oh, and if this wasn't a fantasy - which it is, especially to any it annoys - once a fictional fee was agreed to this fictional scenario which again just made somebody roll their eyes - I would actually prefer to pay say half to 2/3rds in advance, not a scam, just establishing the trust because this needs to be a private party, as described below, and I am willing to to prepay for discretion, based on alloeving the gals of any fears of being cheated due to "misunderstandings."
First point as said, I am looking for an amateur, semi-pro, or discrete pro to take my babble and make it real for agreed cost plus her additional percentage for planning, and guess what - fantasy involves no llamas!
It's just that along with my fetishes, I remain also a gentlemen and so fearful of hurting women's feelings it
borders in autistic,
This fantasy is so oddly simple but also narcissistic I remain unsure whether it is just weird, or weirdly revealing, or beneath anyone over the age of 22 - while over the age of 35 actually preferred, although I am neither blind nor stupid.
Fantasy digresses:
If you mock, enjoy, fair enough, we are trying to build an impossible fantasy here, mostly impossible because the small moving parts will seem silly to any serious provider or kinking swinger, former swinger sort, so in advance of obvious screening, and in advance if the info I Need from any interested to proceed, place it on front street that like any I can be embarrassed, but this is so above board if you are an appropriate applicant, as a gesture of good faith you'll receive not only a small honorarium in advance (yes, I'm crazy) but also access to my FB, Linked In, Twitter, not from kinky - keep that private - but for security to you, because the following fantasy will seem too stupid simple or weird to be true, but I am and it is - a bucket list item for a guy working the list. (Nothing concerning, just ambition.)
Meaning this happening for me is more important than anyone who gets into consideration trying to blackmail me over, everyone who knows me knows I have this on a list, no one knows the whole list or whatever, but point is, you can cheat or embarrass me, or have fun and play with me, but I'll be so honest it's either I am nuts or an odd sort of gentlemen in a weird world, which is true.
Death before discourtesy, even at the orgy.
Upfront, I am RS2K pre cleared, have been on TER since 2007, am a very responsible flake,
I have references, but have also tried to organize this before with nothing but embarrassment, so this ad is specific if as always odd -
Looking for a woman - not girl, woman - who looks normal, no movie stars needed, Think the wife on Rules of Engagement before some perfect stripper. Or any in or out between, however accessible is HOT.
At the risk of being flamed for reasons I either do or don't understand, the party I want which I can finance - I think - but in no way can plan - for reasons I can privately explain, which will magically make sense then - is kind of a Westworld thing - me recreating a real experience I had, and playing it more cool this time so my crazed mind at least gets an idea of what might have happened although yadda yadda yadda in reality this all evolves to a sexual fetish, so here - again - it is, I want to live it again, having planned neither, and this time react better.
Honestly, I would probably not want to enter this without the guidance of a professional therapist, because you might be doing more harm to yourself than good. But you would need a VERY OPEN-MINDED THERAPIST. Because I don't know of too many you could go to and say "Okay, so I am going to hire some sex workers as part of the therapy." 
Although to be perfectly honest, shrinks aren't much different from sex workers. Give 'em enough money and you'd be surprised the things they will happily accommodate