I can't give the PS's name for soon to be obvious reasons.

She was a very famous porn star... active from about 2004-2010. She did openly provide at one point, but it was long before I was a hobbyist and long before I even know that the hobby existed.

Retired from films in 2009 or 2010 sometime.... and basically went underground. All social media disappeared. As you can see from my reviews, I've been with some of the more famous providers, and I've also been with some very famous providers who are UTR. I always ask about her, from those who were around when she was, and nobody knew a thing about what happened to her, even girls who did scenes with her.

To this day she remains one of the most popular girls on brazzers and bangbros by rank...and there are still people who post questions about whether she provides.

Well, found that she has a legitimate business under her real name. She doesn't mention her past directly, but there is a note in the "contact me" that says, in effect, she won't respond to any sexual advances and that she's a legitimate business, etc.

As much as I wish that was just a disclaimer, I take her at her word. If she wanted to make money providing, I assume she'd get in touch with the major agents we all know. Or at the very least, get back on social media in some way. Something.

Her business is an outcall service, and one which is very often used as a front for other services that we're interested in. Keeping in mind that she's my ATF, and that the heart is ruling the mind, the thought crossed my mind to obtain her services, then make an offer for providing. When you want something that badly -- you're willing to risk a literal or proverbial slap in the face.

I've decided not to do it. Have to let it go and acknowledge that she's one I'm never going to have.

If you're able to piece together who I'm talking about, let's respect her wishes and keep it private. Just thought I'd pass along this story fwiw