Posted By: randy3579 About a month ago I met a provider who is my ATF! She makes me feel as if we were dating and I was her only one. I guess I've experienced a true GFE that's a 10 on a scale of 1 to 10. We've met 3 times now over the last month and I'm seeing her again in a few more days. I can't wait.
I feel that I've fallen for her. When I think of her seeing other guys it makes me feel like a boyfriend would feel if his girlfriend with with another guy. I haven't experienced these feelings in years and years. I'm hooked on her. I know she's seeing others because I've seen their reviews and they give her as good a review as I would. So, I know it's not just me. I've even shared my feelings with her to let her know what's happening to me. She says she's fine with it. So, I don't know quite what to make of that.
What do I do? I've been hobbying for about a year now and I've never even come close to feeling this way. It's always been 100% sex. Now, it's something much different and I feel that it's controlling me.
I am married and want to stay that way so I guess it's a dead end road with her anyway. Should I stop seeing her? Should I just back off and not see her as often? I'm sure there are many of you others out there that have experienced the same thing. What do I need to do to fix myself?
Many thanks for your help!