Red, I have seen ladies in this biz whose love of clothes, booze, and other recreational additives prevents them from ever becoming what they are capable of. I mean, looks fade, and some boobs drop, and even your best clients will tire of your stroke and you can only get so much out of a human body and brain. Sure, you can cheat time, but doesn't time cheat you? Do you miss the intimacy of someone who loves you for you and not the money you make?  I have met ladies in this biz who make 8 to 10 grand a week, some probably a lot more, but I see very few of them use this to escape the biz because they are too busy living. I don't buy that women "love" or even like this job. They like the money, the freedom, and yes some get off on the sex. Sure, people walk away from this biz every day, some un-scarred by the journey, others, broken, distraught and hellava lot worse off than when they came in. It's hard enough being a woman even in this day, try being a 30 or 40 something with no other skills than what'e between your legs. I mean even Larry Flynnt gets it. He said once in an interview, "whoever controls the PUSSY controls the world." From my vantage point, the porn, the agencies, the internet, the slave trade are more than likely controlled by men. What this says to me that even as in independent, it is a zero sum game.

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Long story and not sure I have a particular answer. But I'll try to answer as truthfully as I can.

Most recently I was toying with the idea of DATY from a provider. I've never been afraid of using, or enjoying, the fantasy of it with a male partner. But I began to wonder if it wasn't something I really wanted and not just a flight of fantasy and figured the best way to solve a problem is to meet it head on, so here I am, reading and wondering.

Otherwise, I'm just reading. Like I said, I'm not unfamiliar with the lifestyle even if I'm not in it. And really, it's not unlike going to any business seminar I've ever been to. No matter how much you know, there's always something to be learned. I read The Sensous Woman at 16/17 and haven't ever looked back. So I figure if I'm going to be a whore in the bedroom, as they say, then no point in throwing the baby out with the bathwater and not seeing if there isn't something to be gleaned here before I go.

I had no intention of ever posting but the deliberate nastiness of that one kind of pissed me off. I can butcher a song with the best of them, in fun, and do regularly. But I don't care who you are and who you're addressing it to and whether they deserve it or not. To come into their "home" and do something like that is just wrong. It certainly doesn't make you any better than them and may even make you worse for going out of your way to be an asshole.