I look at a man and feel nothing.  I look at a shemale and get excited.

I look at the naked shemale pictures on the net, and if they have any hair near their penis, I get grossed out.  If they are clean shaven, and look feminine, all I want to do is suck their dick.

I am thinking about sucking my first penis, but I am scared, grossed out and a little excited.  I live in NJ and can only find pictures of shemales who work in the city.  Based on what I have said, does anyone have any recommendations for a first timer in NJ?