It is sad when a good thing goes south. I agree, time to move on. And I have. As for the rest, it is what you make it, whether at a restaurant or at a provider's apartment. Restaurants are more fun when you're friends with the "help," same thing holds true for hobbying. Sure, you can say in a Schwarzennegger/Terminator voice, "I paid for admission, now you entertain me, ja?" But the reward will just be mechanical too. Believe it or not, I used to be a strictly "wham-bam-thank-you-ma'am" type of hobbyist. I started in the streets, worked up through MP's to incall, and I've seen a lot. I never thought I'd get sucked into anything more complicated than "how much for a blow job?" Now here I am, doing incall and enjoying the friendships, real or imagined, as much as the sex itself. I now walk away after spending $200+ feeling absolutely great, when I used to swear I'd never do it again (for awhile, anyway), after spending only $20 for a weak BJ in a parked car from a surly streetwalker. I still got off, but the experience sure as hell was different. Just my thoughts, and thanks for yours.